Finally, I'm not going to candy coat my life for the few peoplr that read this, I'm depressed, ani-socail, and sometimes I inflict pain on myself, my gramdma is still in the hospital, and I'm scared. I'm so scared. The bill is gonna kill my family, which is falling apart, and I wish I was dead. It seems like no one cares. My life is fuck up for ever. I hate myself, big time. My best friend is killing herself bit by bit, ever so slowly. But, she doesn't relize she's taking all her friends with her. I want to cry and scream, and just go back to being five again. I want her to be happy, and I don't care how many spells I have to cast, or how many times I have to go without sleep.